When Your Wishes Are Not In Line

Too long, I'm waiting you
Today when i want to see you, you make a scar in my heart.
It's really sick and  painful..
What sin I have made to you?
So,you hurt me today
Tender...Crying...Disappointed...

I wanna  see you, but you don't know what I feel...
Tears in my eyes,,
as the sign of my injuries,,
Why you don't know,, I'm waiting you..
Why??Why???Why???...

You are everything in my life..
You have changed me...
Change into a good girl..
You always give a sweet dreams,, sweet advice
Making me feel so comfort with you...

You are my inspiration..
By Al - Qur'an and As - Sunnah, you guide me...
Always tells about goodness and Islam...

But,,,
Today, Without meet me,,,
Just  leave a piece of paper and book
And say with me " I'm sorry, I cannot meet you."

*just it*

Ooo My beloved Allah,,
I know, it's my mistake,,
I was wrong about this feeling,,
I never say about this feeling with anyone,,,
As long as YOUR guide to me

 Ooo Allah...
I know, I'm not everything for him..
I'm  just  a piece of paper invaluable for him..
Just a simple girl who doesn't deserve him..

Thanks Allah...
Help me to make him become my memories...